Express Yourself.

I can’t really type alot in Graphics because I always have one person looking over my shoulder…SANTINO DEROSE.  He likes to be a creep…as he watches me right now, but acting like hes watching a YouTube video. Tino likes to talk to me in the morning even though i go over to his table just to sit down..hahaha<33333justt kiddingg.

fraaaaaaaaaancheecks is in my graphics class todayyy(: I LOVE HER <3 by far the bestest sister eveerrrrrr

 The last person you kissed treat you right? 

mhmmm

Would you be shocked if the last person you kissed texted you?

No haha

Is this upcoming year going to good one for you?

i hopee

Do you hate the last girl you had a conversation with?

no..i dont really talk to her that much

What if you had a baby with the last person you texted?

insest much? uhmm?

Do any of your friends dislike each other?

yeaa

Who knows your biggest secrets?

my sisterrr

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?

yea

Are you in a good mood?

kindaaa

Do you think ex’s can remain friends?

yea, but its never happened to me before..

Were you single on your last birthday?

yup

Does it bother you when people respond with one word texts?

yea, kinda depressing haha

Are you starting to realize anything?

yeaah

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Be honest, are you starting to gain feelings towards anyone?
ive had and have feelings for them.

Where exactly did you first kiss the last person you kissed?
living room? i think

Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?
i dont drink it as much as i used to

If the person who hurt you most told you they were sorry would you believe them?
yea but i wouldnt accept it

Do a lot of people understand you completely?Who does exactly?
some, mike. jade, kayla, alex, and jen

Who are your last six texts from?
Alex Gorry, and mom.?

Are you happy with the way things are going?
they could be better but yea

Where were you at nine pm last night?
on my couch with joe dilello and mike

You’re single, right?
nope

Excited for anything?
mhmmm(:

When will your next kiss be?
probably today.

Has anyone laid on your bed besides you?
hahaha yes

What do you have pierced?
yup

The person of the opposite sex you truly care about needs you at 3am, would you go?
of course <33

Hows your heart lately?
happy, sad, all types of shit

Do you think you’ve changed over the past year?
yessss

What is one thing you would love to happen tomorrow?
to not have my dad come in my house….

Do you want someone back in your life?
yeaa

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point, and isn’t around now?
yess

Did you have a weird dream last night?
crazy dreamsss

Do you believe what goes around comes around?
not really

How do you know the last person you were in a car with?
i met her in 6th grade

When was the last time you wanted to punch someone in their face?
yesterday

Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite sex?
duhh

Do you plan on sleeping in tomorrow?
i wishh.

Is it hard to make you laugh?
sometimes. hahaha

Are you doing anything tomorrow?
probably

Ever liked someone who treated you wrong?
yeaa

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months?
i hopee (:

Is anyone over- protective of you?
my ENTIRE family….wonderful

When was the last time you had Starbucks?
longgg time ago

Is there someone that you believe you will always be attached to?
yupp

What are you doing after this?
dreading working on this project

Where did you buy the shirt you are wearing?
i forgettt

Do you like hugs?
love themmm

Are you ticklish?
yesssss veryyy

Something you really want right now?
to be home!

Can you recall the last time you liked someone?
today? haha

What are you doing this weekend?
idk, alot of things

 What happened at 9:00 am today?
drivers ed

Connection between you and the last person who text messaged you?
bestfriendssssss

Do you go tanning?
used to

How’s your hair styled right now?
down and wavyy

What’s one thing you’ll never be seen without?
a bracelet on my left wrist and my phone

Do you drop your phone a lot?
ohhh yea

Who have you gotten really close to over the past year?
Jade

Is tomorrow gonna be a good day?
well damn, i hope soo?

Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met?
yea, once but my friend knew them

Do you ever get “good morning” texts from anyone?
yessss <3

Do you want kids?

not yet..in the future yes.

Are you there for your friends?
always!

me and damian are in graphics and its pretty fucking hot in this room. he cant put pictures in order…hilarious.  im not a computer freak so i dont understand why hes asking me questions on how to do it… hahaha i love this class <3

My favorite TV shows from years ago.

Rocket Power

Kennan and Kell

The Amanda Show

Hey Arnold

All That

All Real Monsters

Rugrats

As Told By Ginger

Doug

Saved by the Bell

Full House

Boy Meets World

Bananas in Pajamas, lol

Double Dare

Legends of the Hidden Temple

Are You Afraid of the Dark?

I miss these days <3

im sitting in graphics pretty bored with damian right next to me actually doing work, im supposed to be but instead im writing because the school didnt block it.  I cant wait for this weekend…..its friday, 3 day weekend, but only 1:18. This period is going to go by so slow.  Time needs to go by a little faster…

today….today i  had alot of plans that i thought would be ruined. instead my night was perfect. i finally got to kiss in the rain with my crush.  i dont think i could like anyone more than him.  hes amazing and i cant wait until i see him again. things started out with just having fun, but the last few days my life has been amazing <3

Mom..

Since I was a little kid I could never talk to you about anything at all.  Every friend I have can talk to their mom about personal things, but me, I can’t.  You don’t understand me, and I don’t think you ever will.  Francesca can talk to you about anything and everything but there’s something telling me that if I tell you anything your just going to flip out.  When I do try talking to you about certain things, you just scream.  This past year has been hell for me, you and dad are divorcing.  I never thought this would happen to me out of everyone in this world but it did.  This divorce just happens to be not as common as other ones.  You and dad will never be able to look, talk. or even text each other again.  Stephanie was with me the day you called me crying saying that dad called the cops on you, and she was there for me.  She helped me and had to talk to me about it, then I went to Danny and Nikis house thinking that it would get it off my mind and they had to talk to me about it as well.  I shouldn’t know anything that I do about this divorce.  You and dad both messed up and tried to drag me onto each others sides.  Dad said that he was going to give us a better house and life, but you said don’t listen to him your going to live with me.  It felt like my arms were being pulled by you and dad.  I understand the fact that you tried keeping it civil between you guys and dad messed up by fighting with you, but you did a lot of things wrong too.  I had a friend in the car and you had your realitor on speaker talking about you and dad, the bills, mortgage, making it seem like we are broke.  I shouldn’t have any idea about that but of course I do…You explain bills to me and tell me stories that make dad seem like the bad guy.  Thats the last thing I want to hear is stuff that makes it seem like this family’s going to shit.  I like being with your side of the family because no one mentions anything about it, which is good.  My school year last year felt like I had no family and no one there for me.  Shouldn’t a daughter always feel like her mothers there for her?  I try to convince myself that you are, but I cant.  I don’t know why but that’s just how I feel.  I hope that eventually I will be able to talk to you about everything.  

Dad,

Theres so much to say to you.  Sometimes I want to scream at you, cry to you, and just talk.  It started with you constantly making mom cry on sunday mornings, I would wake up from you guys screaming and mom running up the stairs crying and telling me nothings wrong.  I was only a little kid and already I knew something was wrong, and your anger towards me, mom, daniel, and francesca, just made everything just 10times worse.  As a baby to about 7 years old I thought you were the best man alive, having my father as a firefighter, coming to my school as a hero talking about fire prevention being able to say, thats MY dad.  Knowing that when I was home at night I didnt have to worry about a thing, no one breaking into my house, a fire, or even a tornado.  You would always tell us to go in the basement when you had to go to the firehouse over night for snow duty, and I just worried the entire time you were gone.  I always talked to francesca when you left me when I was little.  Worried all the time, crying, thinking if your going to lose your life in a fire.  Then I grew up and knew how to listen.  You weren’t the person I thought you were.  I would come home from school and it was always you arguing with my brother or sister.  Of course when I grew up it started happening to me too.  When you scream at us, it scares us to death.  You have made every one of us cry even your son, whos the tough one out of all of us.  Last year, my brother starting being afraid of you and no wanting to talk to you.  We would all fight everyday and me francesca and daniel would just go upstairs into one room crying.  We knew your anger was getting out of hand.  Mom told you that she didnt love you anymore but she would still live in the same house as you and do everything she normally does just until I get out of high school.  You did not accept it.  Instead you flipped out and did some fucked up things.  You almost turned her best friend against her because you accused mom of something.  Your sister helped… But I think it was far from help. She made everything 1000 times worse then they already were.  You also put a tracking device on mom, you couldnt trust her and thats what pisses me off.  Then when your daughter was in the hospital not to long ago, you couldnt be in the same room with the mother of your child because you still didnt want to see her.  She was in the hospital and you couldnt even be together for her.  That was the one thing that hurt me the most.  We will never be as close as we were when I was little because you ruined it..

Happy Birthday! I love you so much. You the angel but fuckin rebel of the family haha.  Your 17 today and you get your license soon.  We are going on raod trips and your coming to my house every day.  I love you and your the best cousin tha anyone could ask for<3